Precarious

I am in the middle of an incredibly sticky situation. I never in my life thought that i would be here. I don't really understand the reason for everything. I know that this situation is exactly the reason why i have not dated in 5 years. I am being vague for a reason. I don't really want it to be true. Not yet. There is not really a reason for where i am except that the heart wants what it wants, and sometimes what it wants it doesn't necessarily need....