Elijah

In 1 & 2 Kings starting in 1 Kings chapter 17 there is the story of a prophet. Quite possibly the most powerful prophet in biblical history. Elijah was so cool and so "in" with God that he was one of two people in the Bible who did not die. God just took him up into the clouds. A very cool story.
Well, Elijah was given the task of delivering a very unfavorable message to a king and his prophets. He did so, and gave an incredible showing of Gods' power. He called fire down from heaven and had all of the false prophets killed. He gave them ample warning of course that they must cease and desist all lying and blaspheming. The kings' wife (Jezebel) heard of this and put a hit out on Elijah. And he did what any God fearing human being would do in that situation...... He ran. He had just performed some amazing acts; things that could have only come from God; killed 400 men by calling down fire from heaven, and yet, he ran.
The story does not name the place specifically, but i've spoken with many biblical scholars who believe that he spent this time in a place called Cherith. He was alone, and afraid and asked God to take his life many times. While he was there, God fed him, encouraged him and made sure that his general well being was taken care of.
I feel as though i have been brought to the place that i am in to be taken care of by God. I am alone, scared and have on more than one occasion questioned the purpose of my existence. Through all of this, i have been sustained -- taken care of.
Now though, i think it is time for me to go and do what God has called me to do. That means so many things have to change. I have to be brave. I have to come out of Cherith and deliver whatever message i have to whomever should have it.
Time out for the okey doke. I have to get up and move on. It's so hard to do because of the comfort of being alone and being taken care of and out of the line of fire. To whom much is given much is required. I just hope that i have not gone so far out that God does not see fit to bring me back in.
I'm incredibly disappointed in myself and my behavior for the past 6 or 8 months, but God gives hope. If he doesn't remember it, why should i? Easier said that done though.
So, my friend. It is time to come out of Cherith.